Believe it or not, I'm back to writing...

Well, it's been a while since I have tickled the keys purely for the sake of downloading my brain. It seems that these days stretch me too far and too thin to have much left for pondering. Dathan is out with the boys - apparently a combination of speed/crack/caffiene has been circulating through our air vents. Funny thing is though, only little boys between the ages of 2 1/2 and 4 years old can feel the effects! After question #302 pronounced with no intelligible "r" or "l" sounds came spilling out of Sam, and after he put the chair upon my right foot and scrambled up upon it for the third time while following me around the kitchen, I decided to retreat to my office. So here I am, what to say?

I'm pondering the difference between my life and that of my younger sister. We both live full lives - and envy the pleasures and simplicities of each others. She longs for a home full of children sounds - to have children around to push her buttons continuously and whatnot. I envy her coming home to a house that is exactly the way she left it - no Elmo music to be found anywhere, nobody asking for their bottom to be wiped clean - gourmet food ingredients begging to be turned into masterpieces that no body will wretch and gag over. I suppose we should trade responsibilities for a week to gain perspective...Maybe I just need a vacation...

Would my life be empty without the constant refining of wondering if I can be/do/act/achieve better? Be a kinder mommy? Find a new recipe that everyone likes? Strech my food budget a little further? Work just a little harder? In a word, YES. What kind of a mommy would I become if I DIDN'T cry and stretch to be better at patience and kindness? The rewards are full of sticky honey kisses and little arms barely reaching around my neck. How can I push myself to achieve better without the challenge needed to make ends meet and find foods that nourish bodies and palates? When I hear, "Mommy, you are the world's greatestest cooker ever!" I find I can go a little further, work a little harder. Is my life full? YES. Am I tired? YES.

Does the Lord cry over us the way we cry over the pain of our children? I think He does. I don't understand how He works - or why most of the time, but I am thankful for the blessing of this new perspective of how He loves me. I sometimes fall into the trap of thinking that he is punishing me for a bad choice or attitude. But then I watch my children do something that I have warned, and warned, and warned them not to do (ex: stick a hairpin in the electrical outlet) and I watch them get burned. Do I kiss their owies and treat their wounds? Yes. Do I stop them when they get down from my lap and pick up that darn hairpin again? No. (Here we go again!) I know that they are not going to learn this lesson from simply listening to my words - or they would have by now. Why should I expect God to save me from a consequence I have brought upon myself through steadfastly ignoring His reminders? Does He love me less because He didn't save me from the circumstance that produced so much pain? No way. Burns hurt. But I pray that I may never forget that they are branding my heart as His - refining me towards more holy and grace filled living. I hope my children can understand this when they grow towards maturity. I pray that their little souls know the depth of love surrounding them. I pray that they will one day walk humbly with their God...AND remember that their mommy is the greatestest cooker ever...

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Annalei's Quilt

Here is my latest creation: my good friend from college, Naomi, had a baby girl last September. Well, I finally got it together enough to finish the quilt I made for her daughter, Annalei. I don't get to do many projects that involve pink so this one was especially fun.

Back to Work!!

I have just completed my third week at SALON ESSENTIALS as a hairstylist. I haven't made any money as yet - but I love the job. The Salon has an entirely different feel than any salon that I have worked in before. Each stylist works as their own boss - we just pay rent on our space - and that seems to diffuse the competetion and general nastiness that happens between stylists at other salons. The salon owner, Sally, also has a great attitude and the environment seems hugely shaped by her. It is hard to leave my boys so often - I have had to shift my perspective about being a mommy. There are benefits and drawbacks to it all. I enjoy not having to tell anybody at all that I am going to the potty and not to open the door or hit anybody while I am in there. But I miss their dope-y from sleep, sweet ways in the morning - and hearing (10 times in a row) "night night mommy, i LOOOOVEE YYYOOOUUU!" at bedtimes.

I forgot how much I loved being a hairstylist. Helping people feel good, not only about their unique character, but the beauty that God has given them on the outside. I only help them see it too. I LOVE that part of my job. It is hard not to color my own hair every week though - to the horror of my husband, who loves me "natural" (natural...what?!?!!?). Anyway I thought I would post my "professional" picture that appears on my business card - thanks to Reeta - so you all can see that I am not always a sweats-clad, make-up from two days ago, frantically runing behind two tornadoes of activity mom. By the way, Hi, Amy.

A deflated balloon and a floppy giraffe...

I don't think that my heart can swell with love any more than in those early morning moments when I am greeted by a sleepy eyed, grinning little boy, draging behind him the two most important things in his whole world: a deflating pink baloon (bobbing along on the ground) and his floppy stuffed giraffe. Sam has been sick for the last week. All disgust with vomit and diarrhea aside, the moments of comfort have been TREASURES. He usually doesn't sit for very long at all, but in his sickness, he has sought out the comfort of being rocked to sleep and generally being held as much as possible. When something is as fleeting and precious as a little boys' heart - it is so wonderful to be able to put your arms out and relish holding this little one close. Isn't it a captivating thought that the Lord desires our hearts this way? My heart is a treasure to the Lord as my sons hearts are a treasure to me...

I am having a brown day today. Not brown like muddy, but comfy, soft brown. Toned down. I spent the morning at an art class with the boys and my mother. While we herded paint flinging little boys around the brightly colored and loud class room - I remembered how much I loved art class as a child. The smells of fresh tempera paint, old molding clay, warm crayons, and drying Elmer's glue brought me back to a much earlier day. I remembered how my little heart swelled with anticipation at what kind of thing I could create next and how proud I was of myself. The Lord has been gently prodding, reminding me that my dear little sons have the same hearts as I did, tender and dewy with innocence. What a heavy burden of responsibility and yet lightness of delight in being a mother to sons. I am relieved to know that it is the Lord that shapes and molds them - I am simply reminded to tread lightly, little hearts are looking to me to see God's face and feel His comfort and pleasure.

Welcome to our blog spot! We are new to this and hopefully it will work out great. I hope to update our pictures as soon as I have some new ones to show. Keep checking back...